Today is October 13th, & today is my sister Alice's birthday. My long time watchers are undoubtedly starting to get  bored by these journals & I'd like to say I'm sorry & promise I'll never post one again...but I'd be lying.  I do this every year on this anniversary of her birthday, how morbid could one person be ? But as much as I personally & passionately loathe all those "poor me" angsty filled journals you see all over dA, on this day I publicly grieve. Besides, A. I don't post that many journals & B., it's my journal, I get to say what I want.    


I may not think of her every day, but I think of her all the time.     And I miss her every day.  I don't take flowers to her grave on or around her death date, because I just can't.     But my husband will be taking me down to the family plot this weekend because I;d rather celebrate her life than her death. It's more meaningful, it's what I do every year, I've never gone to her grave on her death date.

Alice fought her battle with her Breast cancer with humor, grace and courage, though in 14 months it was over. And I was there to see her spirit cross over to join our parents. I know, because I saw our parents waiting patiently at her bedside for her to join them.  

        


There are 2 versions of the following poem, I'm printing the earlier one, which I kind of like better.

    Do not stand at my grave and weep;
    I am not there. I do not sleep.
    I am a thousand winds that blow.
    I am the diamond glints on snow.
    I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
    I am the gentle autumn rain.
    When you awaken in the morning's hush
    I am the swift uplifting rush
    Of quiet birds in circled flight.
    I am the soft stars that shine at night.
    Do not stand at my grave and cry;
    I am not there. I did not die.


      


This is how I've always liked to think of death...& Alice.

My only other thing I have to say is to suggest that everyone go to The Breast Cancer Site & click daily. Your clicks go to save lives....to help provide mammograms for women who can't afford them. While you're there, how about clicking to save the rain forest, or provide food & aid to people in need. It costs nothing but a few seconds in time ... I should know, the link is in my sig.  


And please, no sympathyis needed, that's not why I do this. Just remember to click today at The Breast Cancer Site .....for Alice.  
That's enough.


        


Breast Cancer Site Link ------> [link]

The Current 3 Word Story ----> [link]